Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Questions, doubts, troubles, I ponder...
Recently someone asked me what is the age limit I set for my other partner. Hmmm, this, I have no idea. I never thought of it before. Perhaps not too old I think, but can these be prevented when one really encounter such situation?Speaking of that, remembered Deric asked if I ever consider Zheng ming... I just laughed it off.
Perhaps, love is not a priority for me, at least for now. It's easy for me to fall in love and easy to fall out too.
Anyway, got in contact with a guy I met not long ago. Been exchanging emails ever since he gave me the video on the changi broadwalk event. Ha.. It makes me feel like I'm making a pen pal. Ha.. So near yet so far... Pretty fun! Today, he sent me a video on the fireworks but was damn blur. However, it's the sincerity that counts. =) Hey, BTW he's also from SP maritime. Been sailing for NOL for several years, and now he's back in SP to complete his competency course.
Recently, I felt like a cat without its curiosity. I can't explain but this feeling is choking me up. It's a bit like bottling all emotions inside me. Today, finally someone noticed and asked me what's up, I looked troubled. And I was like.. I Dunno what's happening to me, I dunno if I'm troubled so I'm alright. =) But the more I think about this question, the more I feel depress.. Sucks man... Thinking something out of nothing... Ha...
After that, I really felt like breaking down, but I didn't...
Every thing comes with a reason, and sadly, I have none.
There is no reason for me to cry. I just can't think it out why am I so sad?
Could it be something related to the hoo-ha my family made and I'm the attn person?
Becos' at that very moment, I was controlling all my emotions. I told myself to remain calm and accept the fact they said no matter how, although I felt like bursting out all my opinions but I didn't. I knew it will aggravate the situation if I did. Hai.. I just gave many deep breathe... Haha.. Looks like I am eligible to join the zen clan. Haha... Enough said, going to sleep. =) Hasta la vista...
Mab
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